Looking back on the week, I could see signs that it wasn’t gonna go well. I felt good at Surf City, and but for the bike trouble, I think I could have done well. Monday night I ran an errand, had a great, long conversation but didn’t get to sleep until after 2AM. (Wake-up is always circa 6AM with the puppy.) I did three hard workouts (1 2 3) Tuesday and Wednesday, and before I started the second one on Wednesday (run + stairs repeats) I was sitting in my office, sunset coming and dreading / putting off going to the gym and then out for a run. I had that overtraining headache, now that I look back on it, and I was really sore from the previous two bike intervals sessions. I forced myself to do it. I am following a training plan, and it’s a hard call between being sufficiently mentally tough and acting appropriately when real fatigue gets in the way. I sent out the invite for the Thursday night ride, but come Thursday night I was feeling just wasted, like I might be getting sick, dizzy every time I stood up, headache, achy, scratchy throat. I got as much sleep as I could, barely rode Friday, still felt low. Saturday I did a short, mellow rain ride with Sam on my cx bike. (I hosed our bikes off afterwards, with a view toward overhauling mine later that afternoon.) Life gets in the way for a working dad and bike racer, and Saturday night was my first chance all week to get my “B” bike ready for Sunday’s race. I spent the afternoon and early evening driving kids around, visiting people and running errands, then cleaning the garage enough to get some work done, then finally around 8 or 9 I got to work on the bike itself. There is a rule that you should never make major changes to your bike the night before a race. Another rule is; get lots of sleep the night before a race. I should have learned these lessons by now.
My “B” bike gets ridden a lot, I train on it, to spare the “A” bike. I do crazy 100-mile races on it. I commute on it. It is the go-to bike come fall, sharing duty with the road bike (for wattage-based training) and my mtn bike (for fun-based fun). The cassette and chain on it were way past due for replacement, and I knew my race wheels’ cassette wouldn’t mesh with the chain. I could have just put the sloppy cassette on the race wheels, put some oil on the chain and made a date to overhaul it in the future when it wasn’t the night before a race, but I was stubborn and wanted a properly functioning bike the next day, so I dove into it. I thought I could deal with the lack of sleep.
By 1:30AM I had new cassette, chain, cable, housings, hoods, tape and some newer (from the “A” bike) bottom bracket cups, and I’d tensioned, trued and dished my rear race wheel. It was working and feeling good. I was in bed by 2AM, but then the cat was licking licking licking himself right by my head so I put him in the hallway and closed the door. Then the dog was awake and making noise in her crate. I think I fell asleep at 4AM, angry.
Monday morning was the usual packing / organizing mayhem. This time we got to the race without money and water. SOMEDAY we will pack the night before. I also couldn’t find my hr strap, tried using Lauren’s but I guess it’s out of batteries. (She never uses it.) We did get there early so Sam could race, but this time he just did not want to do it once we’d gotten there. I gave him a bit of a push but no dice. He’s in between the kiddie race age and the juniors age, and is very casual about riding. He’s a kid. His buddy Nate did the juniors race, and I think Sam might try it next time. It’s his call. I hung out while others got ready to race, then finally suited up and got a lap of the course and a “warmup” in. dfL Brad showed me a cool section along the coast line, and I just rode around. I did not feel like riding my bike. I did not feel like warming up, getting my heart rate elevated, spinning or sprinting or riding on a trainer. (Didn’t bring one, either.) I lined up at the very back. So far I’ve been treating all my races this season as experience, paying attention to results and trying to move up from DFL, but I’ve had low confidence and didn’t want to get in other people’s way.
At the start I usually am able to move up a few spots, then start chasing people. Yesterday I could not do it. I had nothing! Guys I can usually ride with and get in front of were dropping me like a bad habit. All I could do was pedal hard and watch the entire field ride away from me. Then the 45s caught me and they passed me too. It was awful! People were cheering for me and I wanted to stop and apologize to them for sucking so bad. I felt like I was letting everyone down, myself included, and I wondered again about my decision to race in the A’s. Luckily I was getting bottle feeds from my teammate Mark, and even though I was just sucking in the 35+ A race, I still intended to do the singlespeed race. What doesn’t kill me, makes me stronger. I knew something was wrong with me, but figured I’d still see benefit from the singlespeed race.
Amazingly, I wasn’t DFL.
By the way the course rocked. The rains of the day and night before had made it greasy and fun, the mud went from liquid to peanut butter to tacky, and the grass was really fun. The course should have suited me, being mostly flat and requiring a lot of power, but nonetheless it was a really good course.
After the first race I had a little window to down the rest of the bottle, make a new one, find a new person to feed me and change numbers. Thanks, Team Oakland, for helping me with those items. I lined up at the back again, and when the gun went off I rolled out. I was still feeling like crap, and couldn’t hold onto friends who were chatting with me as they dropped me. Good bye! The first half was a sufferfest. At one point an A racer was coming up on me, about to lap me. I was close to a transition from asphalt to mud and I took a sketchy line to let him go by, and I went down, tearing my skinsuit, my elbow and taking him down too! Lesson learnt: Never take a sketchy line to let someone pass, ride the good line until they can pass safely. I really couldn’t see out of my riding (prescription) glasses, just too much sweat & salt on them. Finally at 30 minutes in I took them off as I went by the Team Oakland tent, handed them to someone (”Give these to Team Oakland?”) and got back to it. Immediately I felt better, I could see! The course was getting more fun, or I was getting more comfortable with it. Jon and his crew were heckling me, which was funny and lifted my mood. Wait, isn’t that backwards? At one point he yelled something about punishing myself or self-hatred or something like that, and it put a big smile on my face. People continued to lap me, I was going so slow, but I was enjoying myself, taking wider lines and powering up the little climbs. The SS bike still has the same monstrous gear on it that it came with - I haven’t even counted the teeth yet - so that even if I’d had the legs to do it, riding the big run-up was out of the question, but that’s OK. I nailed the one-leg-clipped-in coast-up, step, step, step technique. I have to say that the Kenda Small Block 8 700×35 clincher tires at 45/40 rear/front were awesome, maybe better than the Challenge Grifo 700×34 tubulars at 32/36 on my geared bike, on this course. I got a beer feed (Newcastle in a can) from my teammate Tom late in the race, had a couple tasty pulls, then passed it to another SS racer in a Freewheel kit. I think he got the empty can back to Tom when we looped back around to where he was. The finish was sweet. I briefly saw Lauren after I finished my race, before she started hers. She looked good, and she was smiling.
Here’s another one for you, Marian: Two wrongs don’t make a right. That about sums up yesterday.
The rest of the day was a friendly social blur, except for one moment of clarity. Towards the end of the day I was riding over to the parking lot to bring the Land Crusher back for loading. Frank stopped me. We both just made the jump this year from the old-guy B’s to the old-guy A’s. He told me to believe in myself. He’d seen that lack of belief at the start line, and he’d caught me and passed me, then had chain troubles, then caught and passed me again. He knew I’d had a bad day, but he also saw self-doubt. He wanted me to know that he believed I could do better, and I should believe it and race like I mean it, and try to do a better start and not consign myself to DFL. He was right. This stands out. Thanks, Frank.
Another bright moment; Paul gave me back my “A” bike’s frame, repaired and painted, just seven days after I’d handed it to him. Wow! Thank you, Paul. I love my Rock Lobster frames. He told me if it broke again he’d replace the stays, but it might be a while before he can get them. In the meantime I’ll build it back up as fresh as I can build it, and race it for the rest of the season. Hopefully it makes it to 2009, when it can take a refresher at the Rock Lobster spa.
I was dreading writing this, seeing results, hearing from friends how their races went. I feel bad about this weekend. Yesterday after the race I was truly laid out. It’s time for a break and some rest. Time to heal up the road rash on both forearms too! (The other arm got torn up Wednesday morning, riding to work on rain-slicked roads.)
I was really tempted to go to Portland for the Single Speed Cyclocross World Championships. I have friends going and I know it would be a blast, but money’s tight and we have a raft of social obligations next weekend, plus four soccer games. And I really need a break after 11 races this season! (I only did 19 total last season.) My bike will go at least, with Mikey. Next weekend I’m going to go for some pleasurable mountain bike rides. We’ll be back at it Saturday 11/15 at Sierra Point. We also have double weekends of soccer games 11/8 & 11/9 and 11/15 & 11/16. I love my kids but I can’t wait until soccer season’s over. (I wonder if they’ve formed the same corresponding thought about us and cyclocross, yet?)
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